Wednesday, July 30, 2008
I know I am very, very fortunate when it comes to her night sleep.
However, what I need help with is soothing her to sleep and naps. She really, really, really hates going to sleep and she fights it. We try swaddling, dark rooms, quiet, music, white noise, rocking, walking, the swing, etc. The best ways to get her to sleep are at my breast (which can take an hour of her crying because she's so tired and nursing) or being swung in the car seat (during which she'll cry at first until it lulls her to sleep. Also, during the day she only naps for 20-40 minutes and in the late afternoon it can be very tricky to get her to go down.
1 - How do you soothe your baby for sleep?
2 - Shouldn't Lydia be old enough to go to sleep herself? If we soothe her and then lay her down she starts to cry and the whole process starts all over again.
3 - If she's sleeping through the night so well, how much sleep should she get during the day? I try to have her nap every 2 hours, but that doesn't really work. She can get pretty cranky during the day.
Please leave comments with suggestions. It can be so stressful.
Saturday, July 26, 2008
On the way from Mass to the gym Travis slyly switched the radio over to a CD - the new Coldplay album for little ole me. (I love it!)
Then, while I was washing up some dishes, Travis brought Lydia to me. She was "holding" her present to me, wrapped in a receiving blanket. It was Stranger Than Fiction.
Mom showed up about 11 so Travis and I could go to lunch at Chili's.
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Sunday, July 20, 2008
The acting was great, the plot was wonderful and Christian Bale just keeps getting better looking. Seriously, back in 6th grade I had a crush on this guy from Newsies and Little Women. He looked good in Batman Begins and The Prestige, a little better in 3:10 to Yuma but he looks freakin' great in The Dark Knight.
I digress. Go see the movie, but for Pete's sake, people, don't take your kids. Your child should be at least 13 to see the movie. The Joker is creeee-py and there are some tense moments. I even covered my eyes (but not when Mr. Bale was on the screen). sorry.
And if you do take your kids, my friend will be really ticked at you.
Seriously, though, this movie is so great because the character of Batman is so interesting. I love that there are the 3 sides of 1 man and I love that he sticks to his moral code. I love that he chooses to suffer for the greater good - that he is so willing to put others before himself. Of all the super-heroes, I like him best. He's not an alien or the product of some science experiment gone wrong. He's a billionaire wanting to save something he loves and serve something bigger than himself. And he hangs out with Michael Caine and Morgan Freeman. The guy's got good taste.
Thursday, July 17, 2008
I breastfeed at restaurants, shopping centers, parking lots and even Mass - it never fails that Lydia will be hungry. I try to do it discreetly - I put a blanket over myself as I "get the boob out" and "close up shop." I keep the blanket draped on my shoulder so my stomach does not show on the side she's nursing on. I try to keep the shirt covering most of my breast but I do not nurse with a blanket over Lydia's head. She doesn't really like it, and I don't blame her since I don't like eating with anything covering my face.
I understand that breastfeeding can make some people uncomfortable and that for men it can be a challenge if they get a glimpse, especially an unexpected glimpse of boob. But in my mind, there is absolutely nothing sexy about a breast that's squirting milk. I have relatives and friends who are male who become very uncomfortable when I feed my daughter. For them I will leave the table or room, or at least turn away from them as Lydia eats. I also try to remember to ask people if it's okay for me to nurse in front of the, but really if you're a woman I'm not going to try to hide much. I believe the absence of a high profile of nursing mothers is to blame for the over-sexualization of all things breast related* and the amount of women who do not breastfeed or give up early on when there are difficulties establishing breastfeeding.
It's fascinating to look at the large amount of Catholic art that shows the Blessed Mother nursing the Infant Christ. There is nothing sexual or awkward about it. The artists were showing the full humanity of Our Savior and God - He was fully dependent on a woman for life. The works also show the tenderness and love they felt for each other. In my new role of mom, Mary nursing Jesus is one of my favorite things to meditate on, especially when Lydia is at my breast.
And as far as nursing at Mass goes - I like to think of the line from the Gospel and the Eucharistic Prayer, "This is My Body, which will be given up for you." Being a breastfeeding mother is a sacrifice: my body is no longer my own. And now my understanding of God's love and Christ's offering are greater because of that.
*See this article for more info on that statement. The above magazine cover was called "gross" and I heard one man even call it "pornographic." The first statement is a pretty sad reflection of our secular understanding of the female body. The second is just sick.
This is the collage she made of our Scottish honeymoon keepsakes. Love it!
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Me and some Sisters of Life in St. Peter's.
Trying to get out of Germany.
My friend Domo is heading this one up, blogging about her life with her hubby and new house. Or, well, I think that's what she'll be blogging about since it's a brand new blog and there's only one post. But go ahead - stop over there and welcome her to the wonderful world of blogging.
A teacher who lives in the Chicagoland area, Domo's been a faithful reader of mine since the beginning. She's also really fun to hang out with, especially at wedding receptions. Seriously, if you think you might have a dud of a reception you should hire her to be your fun guest who will get the party started.
Well, I do, but I only use water unless it's at the end of a day when I wore make-up. Then I use a little bit of face wash and a lot of water.
This was inspired by my husband and our friend who use nothing but water ("and shampoo if it ever gets on my face") and have no zits.
The crazy part is that my complexion is actually clearing up. But we'll see how it looks after a couple of weeks.
Saturday, July 12, 2008
Deep down, I know much better than to listen to that evil voice inside my head. But some days, I let her totally control me. I let her ruin my entire day by giving in to her insults and commands. It seems that by now, I should be stronger than that evil bitch inside my head, and just kick her ass to the curb. But for some reason, I just don't let go. I let her tell me that I am not worth it...that I am ugly...that I can't do it...that I am a lazy pig who will never be good enough. So why do I keep her around? Because part of me feels like I would be lost without her. I know that sounds crazy, but even though she puts me down, to me, she is a safety net. With her, I won't have to work on learning to trust my own body and intuition. With her I can be structured and rigid, and by following her strict and rigid rules, I will be safe. It is like being in an abusive and controlling relationship.
In college I was introduced to binging and purging. After 2 years I was able to stop but since then a diet has always terrified me. The structure of a diet along with my lack of self control and the way I use food to reward and punish myself only leads to huge binges. I haven't purged for over a year, but that voice is in my head, too, telling me it's the answer. It's a scary place to be, and thank God I have a husband who prays for me.
The body image issue has made me so afraid for my daughter. I seriously pray on a regular basis that she won't struggle with eating disorders or find her worth in how much she weighs or what she looks like or in if boys want to date her.
God save us all.
Friday, July 11, 2008
The first up is RADICAL CATHOLIC MOM.
Stay at home mom who lives in Alaska. Her husband is involved with the military and they are both involved in Hispanic ministry.
I started reading her in May 2007. I had just miscarried Peter and needed some Catholic comfort. When I googled "Catholic - miscarriage" her blog come up.
I like reading her because she presents views unlike mine and ideas that are new to me. Immigration issues are very important to her, and some of her posts have led me to investigate issues that I never really knew to care about before. Her posts have also challenged me to be more faithful in my tithing.
Thursday, July 10, 2008
My cousin was the one who found him!
Yay Matt! I've always thought you were a good guy - now everyone will know it's true!
Read about it here.
And see him interviewed here.
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
Along with that, Travis and I have been going to 7 am Mass and then working out at the college for 40-60 minutes.
Since I'm breastfeeding I shouldn't lose more than 1-1.5 lbs a week or it could mess up my milk supply. Which means that it will take me six months to get back to the weight I want to be at.
Sunday, July 6, 2008
I love sleeping with her. There is something so precious and lovely about snuggling together. I can smell her sweet breath and skin. Her little fingers may stroke my face or arm. She burrows her head into my side. And while she's there I can't help but think that she won't be this small for long and I must drink deeply of these moments.
Thursday, July 3, 2008
2 - Lydia can carry on a "conversation" with her cooing and babbles. She is successfully reaching and grabbing things and is on the way to being able to turn over. She gets cuter every day.
3 - We have a new renter for upstairs. He's a friend from EC (he actually took over my job at the college).
4- We set up the crib in the dining room. There's no room for it in our room and sometimes I'm ready for her to no longer be sleeping by us. Other times I'm not so ready for it, though. Tonight will be her first night in the crib - we'll see how it goes.
5 - The intro class Trav was going to teach at the college was cancelled - which is actually good for us because he now has more time to get things ready for the new renter upstairs.
6 - I am addicted to sugar and have been comfort eating a great deal. Therefore, my trips to the gym may be building up muscle, but they are not making my belly fat go away.
7 - We're painting the living room a light, warm yellow called Summer Wish. I like it.
8- We've been watching the HBO mini series John Adams and we've been LOVING it. Rent or Netflix it - you won't be sorry!